So, I’ve been taking our bailout a little too seriously. And it’s lasting too long. This is upsetting, because I feel like I was doing really well on the diet. But, like always, a little backsliding has gone a long way.

The good news: I haven’t gone off the deep end. I’m still eating vegetables, eating fairly reasonably in general, and I even went for a short run yesterday. Unfortuntately, though, eating reasonably doesn’t do much for me. My metabolism is so slow it needs me to really work and be disciplined for the long-term before it really responds.

I hate starting over. I can’t seem to find motivation. I feel so gloomy about this whole process. How can I get motivated? How can I fit in exercise along with the zillion things I have to do every day?


April 29, 2009 at 2:37 pm Leave a comment

I Hate Points

Every time I have attempted Weight Watchers in the past, there has come a point where I get really angry with the Points system.  Trying to figure out the values for every little thing I eat – especially when eating out, which I have been doing a lot lately due to various life circumstances – is so frustrating that I typically start to rebel against the system.  Better stated, I “cheat without regret and with great pleasure.”  For example, I just walked away from the kitchen having made a significant dent in a container of frozen yogurt, eating straight from the container with a fork.  A fork, I tell you!

That time has come, as I knew it would.  This does not make Weight Watchers impossible, it just means that I need to find a way to get motivated to stay on the plan, or try something new.  It doesn’t help that I’ve had a haneous sore throat all week and haven’t felt up to exercising, which usually motivates me to eat at least a little better.

I’ve just moved in with a lovely new roommate who is going vegetarian for a month.  We have decided to share food and cook meals together, which I am really excited about.  We are going to join Grow Alabama, a program that delivers fresh, organic produce to you every week.  I have been wanting to do this for a while and think it will be an adventure to figure out new recipes for the fruits and vegetables that come to us like little gift baskets of health.  It will also help me curb my Points intake, as most produce has little to no Points value.  Bonus!

Right now, I am also thinking that I will join my roommate in her meat-free adventure, which will be a huge help to the budget.  We may have an occasional fish or shrimp dish (she’s okay with eating seafood), which I am also excited about because it has been a while since I’ve cooked those things.

In short, I’m needing inspiration and hoping that supporting community agriculture will be the boost I need to eat more healthfully.  Let’s hope it works.

April 25, 2009 at 9:24 pm Leave a comment

Bailout Week

Sometimes being good is so very hard.  When you’re stressed at work, writing a novel, moving, and trying to figure out your future all while trying to lose weight, it can be hard to keep all of the balls in the air (think juggling, people … geez).  Is this an excuse?  Maybe.  But in our opinion, it’s a darn good one.  Therefore, in true Recession fashion, Carrie and I have decided that this past week was Bailout Week.  Because what do you need when you fail?  To be bailed out, of course.

After binging on Sour Patch Kids, cheap jelly beans, and Starbucks pastries for the better part of last week, it is now time to get back on the proverbial horse.  Wish us luck!


April 24, 2009 at 3:53 am Leave a comment

Wednesday Weigh-In: Carrie -1 (-9 total); Amanda +2 (-2 total)

Carrie: I know I’ve stayed on the diet (reasonable well, anyway), but each time I step on the scale I fully expect to have gained weight. What is this? Pessimism? Learned behavior? Weird.

Amanda:  I have nothing to say for myself.

April 15, 2009 at 2:23 pm Leave a comment

Easter, Cake, and Scaleophobia

At the age of 27, I still get visits from the “Easter Bunny.”  I can’t decide if that is weird or awesome, but, if anything, it is a fact.  This year I made a special request for the EB to not bring me tons of candy, which he/she usually does.  This was a difficult request to make, considering that my favorite candy of all time is the Reese’s Peanut Butter Egg. When I arrived at my parent’s house on Saturday night, the EB had already visited (how did he/she know?!), and as I perused the contents of my basket I had to laugh: one bag of Weight Watchers Pecan Crowns, one bag of Weight Watchers English Toffee Squares, one box of Weight Watchers Chocolate Snack Cakes, and a giant insulated cup with a big “A” on it, for getting in my alloted amount of water.  Okay, there was also a Cadbury Creme Egg and a plastic egg full of Peanut M&M’s, of which I am guilty of consumption.  Sue me.  Thanks, EB for being (somewhat) Recession Diet friendly.

Despite the fact that someone else was looking out for me this Easter, I certainly didn’t do a good job of looking out for myself.  When Sunday was over I was feeling quite guilty for all of the food I consumed over the weekend, which included more than one type of cake, brownies, and a fair amount of non-Weight Watchers candy.  I want to lament my lack of self control, or throw the balme on holidays and the evils of consumerism, but in reality, no one makes me eat but me.  There are no excuses.  So, I am a little fearful of stepping on the scale tomorrow, and don’t expect the numbers to be in my favor.  But as soon as I finish writing this I am going to the gym.  That has to count for something.


April 14, 2009 at 1:34 pm Leave a comment

It’s Working! It’s Working! But Why?

As an American girl, I’ve done my share of dieting. In fact, I’ve done my share of the exact same diet I’m following now. I’ve chosen this plan again because, about five years ago, I lost 25 pounds following it. Sure, I gained some back. But I only gained 10 pounds back.* I think gaining only ten pounds in five years is pretty good, actually.

So I don’t find it surprising that this food plan is helping me to lose weight. **  What shocks me is that it hasn’t been that difficult, at least not compared with five years ago, when I basically white-knuckled it for a couple months before I saw any difference.

Here’s a list of what I’m doing differently this time around. Maybe it’s helping, maybe it’s not. Maybe it’s placebo. But if a placebo helps me lose weight, I’ll take it.

  • Honegar: I crave sugar more than most people. I never realized this, but due to some unscientific polling I have discovered that most people don’t crave straight icing, rock candy, or spoonfuls of sugar. At least not after age six. Eating a tablespoon of honey three times a day seems to regulate my sugar level without giving me the high/crash that refined sugar does. See our recipes section to try it yourself.
  • Not Journaling: Obviously, this blog is a form of journal. But, instead of writing down everything I eat, I’ve been keeping track of it in my head. I’m pretty honest with myself, so this approach seems to be working. It doesn’t feel like as much of a chore.
  • Snacking: Every afternoon, I have either a biscotti or a few squares of dark chocolate. Either snack totals 100 calories, and it makes me feel like I’ve had a treat. I don’t feel like I’m depriving myself, so I’m less likely to “cheat” later.
  • Thinking positively: I feel like such a nerd saying this, but I make myself list five things every day that made me happy. I’m enough of a pessimist that I have to conciously train myself think differently. There are many things that drive me to eat unhealthy food, but one major reason is depression.
  • Eating early in the day: I used to save all my “favorite” food (dry carbs like bread and potatoes, and some protein) for the evening. Now I realize I function better if I give my body fuel like carbs and protein early in the day. If I eat throughout the day, I’m not really hungry at night. This probably wouldn’t work for “refrigerator in the middle of the night” types, but it works for me.
  • Eating real food: I’ve had a couple diet sodas as kind of a treat, but mostly I’ve been eating real (not skim) milk and yogurt, and opting for a little bit of good fat (olive oil, avocados) when I’m craving it. I think giving my body a little of what it really wants has a better lasting effect than eating diet food that has been stripped of its calories, but also its nutrients.
  • Not hating myself: I might go into this more later, but this is the first time I’ve started a diet knowing that, even if I never lose weight, I can still be happy with the way I look. I can enjoy life and feel pretty at my current weight, so I don’t feel an unhealthy urgency to lose it.

This is what I’ve thought of so far. It’s not exhaustive, and some of it might not even be working. But, for now, it’s my best guess.

* I’m not counting the ten more pounds I gained in ONE MONTH due to weird medication in this total.

** I do find the speed surprising, but I think this is mostly due to my body finding its way back to its pre-medication weight, and I fully expect to plateau after a few more pounds.

April 12, 2009 at 3:39 pm Leave a comment

Wednesday Weigh-In, Carrie -3 (-8 total); Amanda -0 (-4 total)

Carrie—Weird. I don’t FEEL any thinner. And my clothes seem to disagree with this number. But I’ll take it!

Amanda – I stayed the same this week, which I am semi-happy about considering the “gift” I received from Mother Nature (too much information?).  On more than one occasion I stood at my kitchen counter eating frozen yogurt straight from the container, so not gaining this week was a small triumph in itself.  I am finally feeling better, so this week I’ll have more energy to exercise and not feel like I will pass out just walking into the gym.

April 8, 2009 at 7:15 pm Leave a comment

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